work to live OR live to work?

It's almost a month I worked here... in a new place...

I never thought it'll become so hard to leave my family alone. I dunno why it becomes so difficult to work here. I mean it's not a new thing for me to work a few months abroad and apart from my family. I really not sure with my decision now. Sometimes I think to go back to the place where I used to be. Close to my family and enjoy the daily "stress & pressure" of Jakarta. Sometimes I thought it is better than apart from my beloved family.

Frankly, it was not as easy as I expected. Who moved my cheese? I did myself... darn!

What am I thinking in a first place? a better salary? not really :( a better place for my family to live? a good environment for my kidz to grow? Ah... it seems so blur now. I can't think clearly. I miss my family so much... it makes me hurt.. inside.

Am I work to live.. or I live to work?

God help me... I'm lost in space and still hoping it's d best I can do for my family.

I miss you so much my dears...

to Mama, Namira & Kenji

with love,

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