HUTANG

Djakarta, October 11, 2005

It happens many times to me. I don't know why I always trapped in a such situation like this. It's sucks. And it's all about the MONEY...

Sometimes I feel like I'm an idiot. When people come to me with his/her sad countenance, and then asked me to lend them an amount of money with a promise that they will pay me back as soon as possible. I didn't knew why I couldn't reject their request. I give them some loan with an expectation that the money will help them much at that time and they will pay soon.

But what happened then? After they receive the loan, they seem didn't owe me anything. If I didn't ask them, they keep silent, and maybe thinking that I will forget all the things. Am I a rich man? No...not yet ^^, I mean, when I lent them the money, it didn't mean that I have much money in my saving and I can donate it to everybody. I just have enough money for me and my family. That's all.

The worst thing is...when I ask them about the money, they give me many reason why they can't paid me soon. But when they have the money, they forgot about their owe and pretending that they never borrow any money from me... that's sucks.

It happen more than 3 times with different people - my relatives exactly...
It's make me very dissapointed when I knew that my kindess is being misunderstood...
I hope they will pay me soon, coz I need the money right now for my family necessity.

Yaa Rabb, it's very difficult to be an ikhlas man...

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